As the ball landed on my feet, I heard the whistle blow. I looked up at the ref with bloody red eyes and could feel rage through every inch of my body. Without hesitating I kicked the ball as far away as I could. Then I heard the coach say” Sergio come out”
My body froze. I felt as if the world collapsed upon me and I had to hold it up.
Why had I let my frustration take over me? I have always been a very temperamental person that never lets anything get in the way of my goals. However, my temper has let me down several times including Friday’s game.
I had scored a goal and generally had a good game nevertheless, as the game started to close down and some of my shots went skyward and I made silly mistakes I felt a block in my body.
It seemed as if I had been buried alive and each time I tried to dig myself out I fell further down my grave.
I tried controlling my emotions and thinking myself out of this negativity but I couldn’t. With every misplaced pass or failed attempt at goal my anger increased and increased.
As a forward I live for scoring goals and celebrating, and although I had scored once I knew I had missed to many goals.
My body desired goals and the only one denying me the opportunity from reaching glory was myself.
Looking back at that moment and how I reacted I now feel ashamed. I usually try to be an example and be the one that my team members look up to. However, I had failed them.
If I had done this in a soccer field and the result was getting substituted what would happen if I had a reaction like that in a future job?
I didn’t even want to say the word… “Fired”
As the image of me getting an anger attack spun around my mind I knew it was time for a change in attitude. I am not talking about letting defenders bully me off the ball or letting their words affect me but the complete opposite.
I decided that it was time that I made them frustrated and instead it be me laughing at their hysteria.
Soccer is my life so if a change in attitude is to be made there is no better place to start than in that sacred field of play.
I know that this change will be hard but as Rocky Balboa said "life is not always rainbows and butterflies, life will hit you hard" and that is precisely what differentiates success from failure.
Those who succeed know how to overcome failure and those who fail are afraid to step up to problems that arise.
My body froze. I felt as if the world collapsed upon me and I had to hold it up.
Why had I let my frustration take over me? I have always been a very temperamental person that never lets anything get in the way of my goals. However, my temper has let me down several times including Friday’s game.
I had scored a goal and generally had a good game nevertheless, as the game started to close down and some of my shots went skyward and I made silly mistakes I felt a block in my body.
It seemed as if I had been buried alive and each time I tried to dig myself out I fell further down my grave.
I tried controlling my emotions and thinking myself out of this negativity but I couldn’t. With every misplaced pass or failed attempt at goal my anger increased and increased.
As a forward I live for scoring goals and celebrating, and although I had scored once I knew I had missed to many goals.
My body desired goals and the only one denying me the opportunity from reaching glory was myself.
Looking back at that moment and how I reacted I now feel ashamed. I usually try to be an example and be the one that my team members look up to. However, I had failed them.
If I had done this in a soccer field and the result was getting substituted what would happen if I had a reaction like that in a future job?
I didn’t even want to say the word… “Fired”
As the image of me getting an anger attack spun around my mind I knew it was time for a change in attitude. I am not talking about letting defenders bully me off the ball or letting their words affect me but the complete opposite.
I decided that it was time that I made them frustrated and instead it be me laughing at their hysteria.
Soccer is my life so if a change in attitude is to be made there is no better place to start than in that sacred field of play.
I know that this change will be hard but as Rocky Balboa said "life is not always rainbows and butterflies, life will hit you hard" and that is precisely what differentiates success from failure.
Those who succeed know how to overcome failure and those who fail are afraid to step up to problems that arise.