A tear rolled on my cheek as the darkness of my room collapsed over me.
"What should I do?" I asked myself. However, the more I thought of the question the problem became worse and worse.
Here I was, I had just got back from Uruguay after winning the SAAC soccer tournament and never in my life had I been so happy. Nonetheless, I had to make a decision now.
Laying down alone in my room with “Simple Plan’s Perfect” was the best way to make a decision. There was something about that song that brought peace to me and allowed me to think clearly.
I closed my eyes, wiped my tears and then clinched my fists together. I took a deep breath and hold it in for 30 seconds.
I wanted nothing to bother me and affect the decision I made… Not even my breathing.
Why is it that at such a young age a decision as important as this one has the potential to be or catastrophic or the correct one.
I had to decide if I was going to continue taking IB Math Standard Level or drop down to IB Math Studies Standard Level. I had spoken to my math teacher, my counselor, both my parents, a college counselor and my uncle and I had decided to drop down.
Nevertheless, that Sunday November 12 I had a gut feeling and decided to follow it. Something inside me rung and made me think differently than I had been doing the past week. It was my growth mindset taking over. It was my creative confidence telling me that I could actually achieve my goals.
I listened to my inner voice and decided not to drop down to Math Studies just for the sake of the grade because that would be going against all of the ideals and values I have created in the Innovation Academy but instead stay in Math Standard and try harder to succeed.
I know life isn’t always rainbow and butterflies it will hit you hard but those who succees are those who know how to take that hit and keep moving forward. That is precisely what I did.
Although, my math grade was hitting me hard and I am between a 4 and a 5 I wont let that number define who I am I will instead focus on learning and overcoming all challenge put against me.
As the growth mindset possessed my body I stood up after making the decision and felt as if I weight 20 kg less. That sense of anxiety was finally gone and I was happy again.
I got the blue paper that I had to turn in on Monday to finalize the details of my class change and burned it.
I never wanted to remember that fixed mindset decision again.
"What should I do?" I asked myself. However, the more I thought of the question the problem became worse and worse.
Here I was, I had just got back from Uruguay after winning the SAAC soccer tournament and never in my life had I been so happy. Nonetheless, I had to make a decision now.
Laying down alone in my room with “Simple Plan’s Perfect” was the best way to make a decision. There was something about that song that brought peace to me and allowed me to think clearly.
I closed my eyes, wiped my tears and then clinched my fists together. I took a deep breath and hold it in for 30 seconds.
I wanted nothing to bother me and affect the decision I made… Not even my breathing.
Why is it that at such a young age a decision as important as this one has the potential to be or catastrophic or the correct one.
I had to decide if I was going to continue taking IB Math Standard Level or drop down to IB Math Studies Standard Level. I had spoken to my math teacher, my counselor, both my parents, a college counselor and my uncle and I had decided to drop down.
Nevertheless, that Sunday November 12 I had a gut feeling and decided to follow it. Something inside me rung and made me think differently than I had been doing the past week. It was my growth mindset taking over. It was my creative confidence telling me that I could actually achieve my goals.
I listened to my inner voice and decided not to drop down to Math Studies just for the sake of the grade because that would be going against all of the ideals and values I have created in the Innovation Academy but instead stay in Math Standard and try harder to succeed.
I know life isn’t always rainbow and butterflies it will hit you hard but those who succees are those who know how to take that hit and keep moving forward. That is precisely what I did.
Although, my math grade was hitting me hard and I am between a 4 and a 5 I wont let that number define who I am I will instead focus on learning and overcoming all challenge put against me.
As the growth mindset possessed my body I stood up after making the decision and felt as if I weight 20 kg less. That sense of anxiety was finally gone and I was happy again.
I got the blue paper that I had to turn in on Monday to finalize the details of my class change and burned it.
I never wanted to remember that fixed mindset decision again.